Sex is all in your head.

So much hype is thrown out into the cultural mind about the techniques involved in improving a person’s sex life that what should be a simple thing becomes more complicated than it probably needs to be. Kind of like that sentence. Are we missing the point entirely?

I am not a psychologist, but having a somewhat screwed-up childhood forces a person to acquire some knowledge in the area. I know I am submissive by nature, yet I am somewhat of a strong personality out in public. Nothing new there. I constantly attract submissive men, which is a tough situation because nobody is holding the whip. This mostly leads to miscommunication and a difficulty navigating my own psychology enough to make sex as fun as the theory of it.

At night, though, around midnight on really lucky nights…something happens that de-categorizes the whole shebang-bang. I have awakened, sleep still dictating my state of awareness, in a state of prime, unfettered ecstasy. If analyzed, one would say that my subconscious was still in the driver’s seat and I was in a state of awareness of my true desires. Who cares! For once, analysis doesn’t turn me on. Let me just describe this state.

My whole body is on fire. If the person in bed with me touched my elbow, I would have an elbowgasm. I would go as far as saying I could have an eyeballgasm when I am like this, I kid you not. I can smell the person next to me on a level that I can’t fathom in a normal, waking state. (Pheromones?) Just inhaling tingles my alveoli into a frenzied tree of sparks.

If the person next to me gets near an erogenous zone, I lose control of my breathing completely and my mouth attaches to the part of that person’s body that is closest and won’t let go. I am in a state of suspended orgasm for as long as I am awake.

Which is baffling. I have a hard time reaching a climactic state when I am normally awake. I have to rely on mechanical means 99% of the time to experience it, which sucks because, though I have had 100 orgasms in a three-day period before due to a battery-powered buddy, it still feels mechanical. (I wonder what the world record is…and if you still have to be able to walk afterwards to qualify.)

Does this happen to other people often? Is there some spiritual connection to the Greater Orgasm? I have heard of the mythical female who is multi-orgasmic during sex. Does she live in this happy state naturally?

If I were to speculate, I’d say that a person has the power to fall into this state any time he or she wants to. I am not sure how to do it yet, but I’m going to try. I have a hypnotherapist… Maybe we can program that state to come up at will. Can you imagine being able to do that all the time? It’s a dream worth chasing.